January 2017.

My time in Mexico was intense to say the least. The treatments were abundant and one after the other. During our month-long stay, I had perfusion hyperthermia where they remove the blood from your body, heat it up to almost 40 degrees and then funnel it back in through an IV. Interesting and hairy-scary stuff. I also had Natural Killer cells cultivated from my own blood and injected back into my liver so that the NK cells could attack the cancer cells. There was the vegan diet, massage therapy, full-day IVs and ozone blood therapy. Like I said, intense. The clinic sent me home with a boat-load of supplements (75/day to be taken every day)! Overall, it was a great experience and I really believed that the treatments were putting me back on the path to total health. After all, Kelly had done most of these treatments in Germany and they had helped her immensely. People often look at you sideways when you go to Mexico for treatment but I have to say, there was never a moment I thought that I could be doing more damage.

Boy, was I wrong. More damage is exactly what I did. I had a MRI in October, two months after arriving back home. The results were not good. My liver went from having two tumours to nineteen lesions. Uh-oh, this is a serious problem. This was not what I was expecting…..NOT AT ALL. So many other people had been helped at the clinic in Mexico. How and why is this happening to me?

At my next appointment with The Godfather and I ask him if I should go back to Germany. I had such great success there. Could it help me again? He agrees that it is worth revisiting the German protocol. Done!

I contact Dr. Weber in Germany and he advises me that he has some new protocols which have shown positive results for other patients. He tells me to come to the Klinik for two weeks to undergo the same treatments with the addition of RIGVIR, an injection that will hopefully stop the cancer from continuing to spread. I will be able to bring the RIGVIR back to Canada to continue the treatment once home. He is concerned about my liver but is confident that the medication will help.

This time, Carl will accompany me to Bavaria. Krista was heading down to Cali for a few months otherwise she would have been my partner in the German version of my kicking cancer’s ass again. I am excited for Carl to see the Klinik and the piece of Germany that I love so much. It is my place of healing and I am ready to eradicate cancer once and for all.

It felt good to be back at the Klinik – the familiar faces, the comfort of the staff and seeing Krista’s family again. It is my happy place especially when it comes to cancer. I spend my mornings at the Klinik while Carl tours around Brannenburg and our afternoons involve sightseeing around the Alps. For Carl, I think he finally understood that this Klinik was not just about cancer treatment but instead all about healing, not only my body but my mind as well. The whole experience is so positive and uplifting. Why didn’t I just come back here in August?

Once home, we pack our bags again and head to Disneyland so Ava can dance in the Disney parade. This trip is well-deserved and well-needed for our little family. It has been a rough couple of months and we are excited to spend some time together at the happiest place on earth.

I decide to have another MRI to check my progress. I’m not sure what to expect but my gut tells me that I will see an improvement and I will be back on my path to being healthy and vibrant. After all, I am the fittest and strongest that I have ever been.

Carl and I are back in The Godfather’s office for my results. His bedside manner can use a little tune-up. He tells me that my liver is now 80% compromised. “If it gets to 90%, you’re dead. You need to start chemo now or you will die by summer.”

WHAT. THE. FUCK.

- Kim

Tumour Marker CA-15-3 = 2,436
Tumour Marker CEA = 81

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